KHASTEE BEKHON ZARAR NEMIKONY

Age bekhay dare ghablame ro bardary bekobi to saresh,age intory nashod ke man nemitonam, chera to bavaret nemishe man age a zoon peleha mikhastam sad dafe beram bala o biam paeen oon mahihaye badbakht chikar mikhastan bokonan,hala oon mahiha ro aslant veleshoon konim,a zoon sange zire zamin to bekhay begiry beri bala sad dafe nagoftam miofty,age az divare oon lole navdoon bekhay estefade koni man yeki nemitonam joloto begiram vali age joloto begiram oon vaghte ke sar be biaboon mizaram,zire khak miram az balasham dar miam az ro kooh ham mioftam paeen.vali to chi? To age bekhay nakoni in karha ro man nemizaram, man mizaram ke to oon kar ro nakoni age bekhay farad rozi in kar o bokoni oon vaghte ke dige nist,man begam.

Hala chera in karo mikoni,khob to bia az in ke baraye man bekhay estefade bokoni bebar sadta dige devista dige sisadta chiz dige baste bandy shode,nashode,age baz beshe baraye chi? Khob man ke nemikham az to estefade namashroo (makshoof) bokonam baraye farad,oon falsafe badbakht ro chi begam oon vaght man!! Nemige ke to sad dafe ketab khondy,jozve khondy nemidonam karhaye dige kardy chera oon ha ro nagofty be man,age man nagofte boodam ke dige nemishod,mishood aya?!!

Na oon ha ro ke bekhay estefade bokoni,man mibaramesh oon sare donya az ro khatesh bar migardonam miaramesh inja ba reil shode,ahan shode,sang shode,choob mizanam.choob age bekham dar biaram,nesfe oon choob ro man nemishkonam ke tamamesho ro estefade mikonam,mibaram baraye tamame adamha, yeki yeki,zan-mard sharh midam,lebasesham daram taze.lebasesh age kolah nadasht ke cheraghesh roshan nemishod age fardash oon vaght bekhad bebare oon ro estefade bokone man yeki kharidaresh nistam ke.hastam?!!

Khaste shodam,dige aslant taghate in ke bekham estefade na makshoof,ah sad dafe ino goftam,age bekham estefade bokonam zir bere hala ro bere,bekhad bala bere,asemoon,havapeima,aslant farghy baraye man nadare,laye abrha age bekham nofooz bokonam,royaee besham,ro chamanhaee ke oon bala dar miad be range abi age bekham bekhabam ya niaze khodamo ye jori bar avarde bokonam az dastam estefade bokonam, nemitoonam ke mitoonam?!! Age ham betoonam sare zanooham dard migire age ham dard begire oon vaghte ke man dige oonja nemiram,age ham beram dige bahash sohbat nemikonam,chera age sohbat bokonam kharab mishe,kharabam beshe man yeki ke nistam ke, oon bar midare mibare estefade khodesho mikone dige ham pasesh nemiare,age pas nayare chi mishe�oon vaght sad nafar dige mian inja vay mistan,man ke nemitoonam baraye oon sad nafar,sad joft kafsh bekharam ke sad ta bande ezafi ham dashte bashe,sad ta band ezafi to midoni cheghadr baraye man dar miad age man bekham sisadta tabaghe bezanam o sadta ahan ham estefade bokonam ba hezar joor shishe ghermez o abi o bastehaye ajib gharib,khob to inha ro ye kam fek kon.

Man kheili delam gereft,kheili delam gereft,delam nemikhast bemire,age nemimord, oon vaght bood ke man dige nabayad har rooz jome pa mishodam miraftam oonja mineshastam pahloye sadta dige,in sadta ro man kheili doseshoon daram,akhe gofte bood ghablan be man sefaresh karde bood ke age man ye roozi az to falsafe oomadam zadam be honar o az in joor chiza o bad ham a zoon var goftam avaz baram bekhoon to e sag age saz balad nabashi man ke nemitonam az oonja beram bala baraye age ham beram bala baraye tamame donya,tamame atrafam,baraye tamame in adamaee ke einak mizanan o age einakeshon dastash shishe ee e,shishash nashkane,man nemitoonam chasb bekharam ke mitoonam aya?!!